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YEAHHHH.....

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Early Thoughts

So it's 6:10am: washing clothes and getting ready to hit the gym jamming to MYtunes. Funeral Saturday in Columbus, Ga. It kinda bothers me knowing that the 2 times I've been to GA it's been for a funeral. I still think about the last one..it was for Kim Freeney (Deidra's Mother); The weather was very odd. It snowed on the day of the funeral (I think it was in March). I'm not used to seeing snow in the previous times of being in the South. But on the way back to B'ham from GA, the snow stopped , clouds parted, and the sun melted all the snow within 45 mins. I believe it snowed because there was so much sorrow in the church at that moment. I then knew Kim went to a place beyond here when the clouds parted. With that said, there is indeed life after death. I also believe that the people who recognize the signs of a higher being are just as important as those who created the signs in order for them to be preached to others in/out of church. Odd? Nah..





I wonder what this one is gonna be like..

Everybody is wearing all white. I choose to further compliment my cousin with a White and Purple Rose before she embarks on her journey to "The Next Level". The Purple Rose primarily because that was her favorite color.

Pause.


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(White Roses mean Purity, Innocence, Silence, Secrecy, Reverence, Humility, Youthfulness, "I am worthy of you", Heavenly)



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(The purple rose indicates love at first sight, the first emotions of love and enchantment. The need to proceed slowly and cautiously. It represents the importance of the spiritual over the material. The purple rose also represents wealth, riches, and majesty. Purple roses say "I will always love you".)

Thoughts on hold for the moment..gotta get the day started...

This is gonna be an intersting fi...damn that was fast!

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Forever

I saw my cousin EXACTLY 2 weeks ago. She was getting better. God saw otherwise. She went home and received her wings. Pause.

R.I.P. Deidra Freeney

August 11, 1981- Still Alive (In MY Mind..just in the Land of the Divine).

P.S. You better come see me in my dreams. We still got things to talk about..

How can I do this?

As I chillax in the office tonight I think about the women I've come across since being down here. Some are very sweet and some are quite sour (lol). I realized that I like a woman that can speak for herself for most cases but can be a sweetheart at the same time. Not one that swears so much..only when necessary. It's not ladylike to swear every 15 secs..period. I don't want someone who goes to clubs so much either. Rather, someone who can actually enjoy being at home or out of the spotlight for someone they genuinely like. That kinda puts on the role of "someone needing to be noticed all the time" if you're going on a weekly basis. It also shows a sign of immaturity..but that's just my opinion (like it matters). Weed smokers are ok as long as she doesn't feel like she needs it all the time (Mind Control). Not on some, "I need a blunt! or.."Where da weed at?" type sh1t. << Major turn off. I've also realized that personality and individuality can go a long way. So far that even if you're just a cool person (in my book), I don't mind being around you. True enough I'm a man, but I've learned to withhold my sexual desires for something more in a woman. I've even gotten to the point where I can lay in a bed with a female all night not not have to have sex or tempt myself to do so. Pause. Maturity is the word. I guess being down here is benefiting me so far. It's bringing me to understand more about myself. I haven't talked to a few ppl from home in about a week or so, with that said, in case y'all forgot, I love all y'all. Imma start getting back in the weight room too..gotta get this body right. I met a nice girl in Lowe's today..real down to earth. I ACTUALLY approached her too. Talk about nervous! I usually break out in sweats as soon as I think about approaching a female. I'm shy, contrary to belief. I guess it's because I think about a scenario of her playing me in my mind and it always turned me away. (Overthinking- When you create situations for the good and for the bad).

" But I do know that eyes give out the truth. Lie is a mouth pollution, so I gotta figure out a solution without abusing everything I am about so..how can I do this?"- Charles Hamilton- In Case I Actually Get Her

It turned out pretty good though. I couldn't ask for more except a chance at peaceful dialogue and she subliminally accepted. She offered good conversation and asked me to write my number down. Good or Bad? I didn't know what to think. I didn't wanna appear thirsty and ask for hers so fast (Overthinking again). I played it real cool though. I think I left a good impression (and again lol). If so, I'll speak to her soon. We'll see how that goes though. I still got big plans for the next few years. What u may ask? I'd rather not speak on that just in case it doesn't go as planned..don't wanna jinx myself. 4th of July was cool. Spent time with family. The more I spend time with them, it makes me realize the importance of all forms of family. Many may not think of it like I do, but everybody needs some sort of family even if they're not willing to help you in times of need or at all for that matter. Just know that they'll be the first at the funeral. That goes for the friends I've received as family over the years as well. That's all I can think of for now..bye.

R.I.P. Cardon...

Real Hip Hop...

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