Dreams Pt.2

Dreaming/Overthinking can mean lots of things. In one dream I had a vision of driving a fancy car, that's obviously not in this lifetime cause money means nothing to me. Dreams of flying? Hell I don't know what lifetime that was in but it was hella interesting lol. But one dream I don't seem to have is one of me being in love of any kind. For a while I wondered why..now I know why. And the answer is quite simple..I think I'm living in that moment. Mind you I said "think". Naw...I'm pretty sure...

Have I been gone that long!?

It's been a while since I posted anything but I assure you that everything is grand. Met a beautiful woman whom I'm considering laying it all aside for (only time will tell), got a good ass job, and here's what topped it off....GODDAMN THIS HAS BEEN A GOOD WEEK!! I wonder what's next...hmmmmm

Unfortunate Analysis.

The subject about the young man that was killed during some sort of school fight was tragic no doubt. Not to mention the fact that it was shown via video on WSHH and Youtube (I think) is even worse. I won't post the video because that's not something I'm willing to publicize at all. Do humans ever think that between all the diseases, freak accidents, animal attacks, and natural catastrophes that hurting or even taking another life isn't gonna do anything but exist as something you're gonna have on your mind for the rest of your life? Self defense is another story. I'm sure ppl who intentionally take a life will drive themselves crazy; It's just the way of our world. The things we show our youth is ridiculous. From T.V. all the way down to some parents. The ones still lost "in the mist" don't tell their children the truth. The global agenda, the REAL "government", how to stay content, never hurt another sapien, not to sell yourself back into slavery willingly (jail), not to sell your soul for a dollar, and as KRS-One said and I quote, "We need to be FREE people, not FREED people". Pause. On top of that, we got these people who want peace but aren't willing to work for it. (Just more frauds to throw in my ever growing box of b.s. in the world.) It's not really even working. The first step is realization of the situation. From that point we need to get the youth involved. We need to give them more respect as the seeds of this planet. Kids learn EVERYTHING from what they see us doing. T.V., at home, ppl just out in public ect. ect. The global agenda is to make the 99% of the population work for the 1%. I urge people to humble themselves. Just be comfortable. I guarantee you'll find inner peace. At that point, there will be peace everywhere. As far as getting into situations that require you to get physical..well.. I'd just say to never take it where it could go. Hell just put on the boxing gloves and if you're over 21, buy each other drinks and talk about it. Shake hands or sumn. idk. But just be cool afterwards. Respect women more in all aspects. Now I SPEAK on this because I DO it.


[Analysis completed for the night]
..Back to my planet..

People need to pay attention....SERIOUSLY!

This MAY abuse everything I'm about but....

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My Shadow

The only person that has been with me every step of my life is my shadow..and even he doesn't understand why, nor does he have to. It's kinda odd when you realize that he is the only one that'll be willing to follow you to hell and back with no questions asked..talk about ride or die. With that said, who can be 2nd & 3rd in line behind him? How bout a Best Friend and a Girlfriend/Wife? Ok lemme chill cause the Best Friend place is taken. My trust in humans diminish as I get older. I might as well get a log cabin out in Aspen. And that's the reason why I'm single. Pause.

Dwele is HOT! F*ck what yall talkin bout lol

I had to get this out my system..sorry lol

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My View

I vow to not be tainted by the inequities of Man. I will not be looked upon as a mere mannequin in motion; trendy and faceless. I do not belief in religion since it has caused more bloodshed than anything in known history, with that I'll believe what I feel is right. News..nah..I'd rather not go there. Let's just say, don't believe everything you see. Nobody can convince me that the way I inhabit my state of mind isn't what it should be..it is what it is, deal with it or there's always another option..*points to the door*. Music: I'll listen to what I feel can be relevant to my life..music having some sort of meaning for progression rather than to brainwash and deteriorate (that goes for T.V. too lol). I'll never live a life that is beyond me, that is until the time comes for my spirit to "shed" this body. Oxymoron; I love people but some of y'all some sneaky bastards! *In James Earl Jones* "DON'T EAT THE APPLE DAMMIT!!" Too many things happen to people naturally (natural disasters or by way of health problems) for them to kill each other. Hmm..Relationsh1ts?..hard to trust...Pause. lol. But I am gonna start going for exactly what I want from now on. If it's something I don't like and I can't deal with then I'm not gonna lead you on and "try" to make it work. "If that's how you are, then you're not for me." Just tired of B.S. I think I'll write a list of what I want on paper and pass it out to ppl I'm interested in, if you don't meet qualifications then throw it away..j/k. Bottom line, I want a prestigious woman. OK, this is totally irrelevant to anything else but: I like my name. I just thought about that. Hell yeah aiight cool.


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Next episode of "My View" some other time...

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Now I ain't tryna be the greatest
I used to hate hip-hop... yup, because the women degraded
But Too $hort made me laugh, like a hypocrite I played it
A hypocrite I stated, though I only recited half
Omittin the word "bitch," cursin I wouldn't say it
Me and dog couldn't relate, til a bitch I dated
Forgive my favorite word for hers and hers alike
But I learnt it from a song I heard and sorta liked
Yeah, for the icin, glamorized drug dealin was appealin
But the block club kept it from in front of our buildin
Gangsta rap-based filmings became the buildin blocks
For children with leakin ceilings catchin drippins with pots
Coupled with compositions from Pac, Nas's "It Was Written"
In the mix with my realities and feelings
Living conditions, religion, ignorant wisdom and artistic vision
I began to jot, tap the world and listen, it drop

My mom can't feed me, my boyfriend beats me
I have sex for money, the hood don't love me
The cops wanna kill me, this nonsense built me
And I got noooo place to gooo
They bomb my village, they call us killers
Took me off they welfare, can't afford they health care
My teacher won't teach me, my master beats me
And it huuurts meee soooul

I had a ghetto boy bop, a Jay-Z boycott
'Cause he said that he never prayed to God, he prayed to Gotti
I'm thinkin godly, God guard me from the ungodly
But by my 30th watchin of "Streets is Watchin"
I was back to givin props again and that was botherin
By this uncomfortable as a untouchable touchin you
The theme songs that niggas hustle to seem wrong but these songs was comin true
And it was all becoming cool
I found a condom on the ground that Johns would cum into and thought
What constitutes a prostitute is the pursuit of profit then they drop it
The homie in a suit pat her on the butt, then rock it
It seems I was seein the same scene adopted
Prevalent in different things with the witnesses indifferent to stop it
They said don't knock it, mind ya business
His business isn't mine and that nigga pimpin got it

They took my daughter, we ain't got no water
I can't get hired, they cross on fire
We all got suspended, I just got sentenced
So I got noooo place to gooo
They threw down my gang sign, I ain't got no hang time
They talk about my sneakers, poisoned our leader
My father ain't seen me, turn off my TV
'Cause it huuurts meee soooul

So through the Grim Reaper sickle sharpening
Macintosh marketing
Oil field augering
Brazilian adolescent disarmament
Israeli occupation
Islamic martyrdom, precise
Yeah, laser guided targeting
Oil for food, water, and terrorist organization harborin
Sand camouflage army men
CCF sponsorin, world conquerin, telephone monitorin
Louis Vuitton modelin, pornographic actress honorin
String theory ponderin, bullimic vomitin
Catholic priest fondlin, pre-emptive bombin and Osama and no bombin them
They breakin in my car again, deforestation and overloggin and
Hennessy and Hypnotic swallowin, hydroponic coughin and
All the world's ills, sittin on chrome 24-inch wheels, like that

They say I'm infected, this is why I injected
I had it aborted, we got deported
My laptop got spyware, they say that I can't lie here
But I got noooo place to gooo
I can't stop eatin, my best friend's leavin
My pastor touched me, I love this country
I lost my earpiece, I hope y'all hear me
'Cause it huuurts meee soooul

Why Why WHY??

In spite of the anger that enveloped me yesterday, I'll speak on it. First of all, females have no idea what they want! They deal with the worst kind of guys and come to me with their problems. Now for the record, I don't mind helping out, but don't keep coming to me about the same sh1t and expect me to have a different solution..period. My only aim is to show you that there is much better out there, and I'm not talking about me...hell that's how I got over my ex; I realized there was much better out there for me. My friend Alicia told me that most females don't know what they want til the age of like 35 (or something like that). IDK how true that is but if it's anywhere near that age they better get a clue real soon. I think that females might need a sense of security, that's why they stick it out with that particular person..or maybe they're afraid to be alone. Maybe they should try listening to Love and Appreciate by Murs if they need help. I just hate to see beautiful women go through so much b.s. with a bad choice instead of upgrading themselves by themselves. That's all I can think of for now..I'm done son.

Guess who's back...on your desktop...

YEAHHHH.....

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Early Thoughts

So it's 6:10am: washing clothes and getting ready to hit the gym jamming to MYtunes. Funeral Saturday in Columbus, Ga. It kinda bothers me knowing that the 2 times I've been to GA it's been for a funeral. I still think about the last one..it was for Kim Freeney (Deidra's Mother); The weather was very odd. It snowed on the day of the funeral (I think it was in March). I'm not used to seeing snow in the previous times of being in the South. But on the way back to B'ham from GA, the snow stopped , clouds parted, and the sun melted all the snow within 45 mins. I believe it snowed because there was so much sorrow in the church at that moment. I then knew Kim went to a place beyond here when the clouds parted. With that said, there is indeed life after death. I also believe that the people who recognize the signs of a higher being are just as important as those who created the signs in order for them to be preached to others in/out of church. Odd? Nah..





I wonder what this one is gonna be like..

Everybody is wearing all white. I choose to further compliment my cousin with a White and Purple Rose before she embarks on her journey to "The Next Level". The Purple Rose primarily because that was her favorite color.

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(The purple rose indicates love at first sight, the first emotions of love and enchantment. The need to proceed slowly and cautiously. It represents the importance of the spiritual over the material. The purple rose also represents wealth, riches, and majesty. Purple roses say "I will always love you".)

Thoughts on hold for the moment..gotta get the day started...

This is gonna be an intersting fi...damn that was fast!

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Forever

I saw my cousin EXACTLY 2 weeks ago. She was getting better. God saw otherwise. She went home and received her wings. Pause.

R.I.P. Deidra Freeney

August 11, 1981- Still Alive (In MY Mind..just in the Land of the Divine).

P.S. You better come see me in my dreams. We still got things to talk about..

How can I do this?

As I chillax in the office tonight I think about the women I've come across since being down here. Some are very sweet and some are quite sour (lol). I realized that I like a woman that can speak for herself for most cases but can be a sweetheart at the same time. Not one that swears so much..only when necessary. It's not ladylike to swear every 15 secs..period. I don't want someone who goes to clubs so much either. Rather, someone who can actually enjoy being at home or out of the spotlight for someone they genuinely like. That kinda puts on the role of "someone needing to be noticed all the time" if you're going on a weekly basis. It also shows a sign of immaturity..but that's just my opinion (like it matters). Weed smokers are ok as long as she doesn't feel like she needs it all the time (Mind Control). Not on some, "I need a blunt! or.."Where da weed at?" type sh1t. << Major turn off. I've also realized that personality and individuality can go a long way. So far that even if you're just a cool person (in my book), I don't mind being around you. True enough I'm a man, but I've learned to withhold my sexual desires for something more in a woman. I've even gotten to the point where I can lay in a bed with a female all night not not have to have sex or tempt myself to do so. Pause. Maturity is the word. I guess being down here is benefiting me so far. It's bringing me to understand more about myself. I haven't talked to a few ppl from home in about a week or so, with that said, in case y'all forgot, I love all y'all. Imma start getting back in the weight room too..gotta get this body right. I met a nice girl in Lowe's today..real down to earth. I ACTUALLY approached her too. Talk about nervous! I usually break out in sweats as soon as I think about approaching a female. I'm shy, contrary to belief. I guess it's because I think about a scenario of her playing me in my mind and it always turned me away. (Overthinking- When you create situations for the good and for the bad).

" But I do know that eyes give out the truth. Lie is a mouth pollution, so I gotta figure out a solution without abusing everything I am about so..how can I do this?"- Charles Hamilton- In Case I Actually Get Her

It turned out pretty good though. I couldn't ask for more except a chance at peaceful dialogue and she subliminally accepted. She offered good conversation and asked me to write my number down. Good or Bad? I didn't know what to think. I didn't wanna appear thirsty and ask for hers so fast (Overthinking again). I played it real cool though. I think I left a good impression (and again lol). If so, I'll speak to her soon. We'll see how that goes though. I still got big plans for the next few years. What u may ask? I'd rather not speak on that just in case it doesn't go as planned..don't wanna jinx myself. 4th of July was cool. Spent time with family. The more I spend time with them, it makes me realize the importance of all forms of family. Many may not think of it like I do, but everybody needs some sort of family even if they're not willing to help you in times of need or at all for that matter. Just know that they'll be the first at the funeral. That goes for the friends I've received as family over the years as well. That's all I can think of for now..bye.

R.I.P. Cardon...

Real Hip Hop...

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MJ Tribute

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L.A.S.E.R.S....I can't wait!!!!

It's sad to think the most talented ppl in the world may never get a chance to be seen or heard..

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A DOG A!!! LMFAO!

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oh and btw, I'll be making an entry on life down here in Birmingham..so far.

What color is your Aura? (A quiz taken from facebook..with accurate results)

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Ramone took the "Which color is your aura? quiz" and the result is: Green

Greens are balanced, harmonious, and peaceful personalities. They need harmony in their life and prefer to live in a natural environment. They are the most balanced people in the color spectrum. They also have a powerful connection with nature. Living in the country, next to a forest or park or close to a lake or ocean is important for these friendly and heartfelt personalities. Greens are open, extroverted, expressive, friendly, communicative and heartfelt. Greens perceive life through their heart. Their primary motivations are contentment and harmony. They judge their successes by how close they are to their friends or nature. Greens are content personalities. If they are in power and have found their place they need very little to be happy or feel needed. Their inner happiness and satisfaction is important to them and is fulfilled without much expectation.
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Who woulda thought

^that Kanye, GLC, and Consequence would EVER come out with this video.


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Headphones I gotta get...in due time. BBDD's

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Quick reminder to my "Former Boos"

Good Hookah Action...

Even though no females popped up Jamell, Rama, and I had a pretty decent time at the Noon Hookah Lounge in Hyde Park (55th & Cornell to be exact). We were supposed to be there at 6pm but ended up making it at around 8pm (late as usual). Since it was our first time going, we were kinda slow on what to expect. When we sat down they handed us menus....whoa whoa wait..menus!?. All types of different flavors of tobaccos. We made a choice between Double Apple and Purple Haze. We ended up getting Purple Haze. How did it taste?? "IT TASTES JUST LIKE IT SMELLS...DELICIOUS!"<< (Tyrone Biggums). I was so amazed cause it tasted like grapes. I mean real grapes! You would think that u would get a cigarette-like taste in your mouth, but this shit smelled like straight candy. On some air freshener type shit. And u can get keep inhaling till your lungs maxed out. Yes, it was that smooth. I was tryna blow O's but I was so stuck on the taste and scent of it I didn't even bother after a while. Hell I was tryna blow the scent through my clothes LOL! Left outta that bitch smelling like Grape Bubblicious Gum. MMMM MM BITCH!



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P.S.--- The ONLY thing that killed that experience was that weak ass Soulja Boy- Turn my FAG on SHIT in the background. I just realized it was playing when Jamell put this video up on Youtube.

The Weezy Chronicles..Pure Comedy

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Ok last one..


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The Best Thing That Ever Happened To Me?

My good buddy Ife asked me what was the best thing that ever happened to me today. I was speechless. I mean I hear people ask and answer that question all the time but when it came to me I really didn't have answer. I never actually thought about it before. So as I think about it now, I'd have to say going to Carbondale, IL for a couple years. It taught me how to honor friendship no matter how far or close I may be. I've come to learn how to love no matter how dire circumstances me become. Even though my past relationship was straight bullshit, I honored every moment of it. I'm glad I got it out the way cause I learned so much about myself during the process. Lessons learned like: No matter what they say, love just isn't enough. Even though that's what "they" say, I still feel in my heart that Love is all you need. That's my story and I'm sticking to it. But back to friendships. Even though me and some of my good friends had falling outs, I honor them even more cause we all grew to love each other like brothers (that's how I see it anyway). I love those guys whether or not they made the right moves in life and I'll never judge them for it. My CREW-SET!! 02-09-06 AHHH ALL DAY!!<< I had to get that off my chest cause I want to scream that shit daily.

While editing my page..

During the reconstruction of my blogspot, I wrote a message that I was really digging. Either u can read it above (Right after my Link pic) or I'll jus save you some time and tell u now lol. "You can't stand out if you try to fit in". << Well its only that line that really got me smiling but Goddamn that boy is good (Coming to America)! Reasons like that is why I love my mind. Ok, back to reconstruction. I just wanted to throw that out there right quick. See you on the flipside.

--Oh and don't forget to vote at the bottom of the page on whether u like the page or not.

Great Video..

Fucking Hamilton!!!

Ok, so I get up this morning and log on to WSHH and what do I see? My main man Charles Hamilton doing a Hood News interview with some chick he used to "deal wit".....



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Update 5/23/09: I just found out that Briana is Mary J. Blige's Step-Daughter! I guess this nigga Hamilton chooses wisely. Briana had a response to the situation...and it goes..


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A Rose is still a Rose.

Some like it in pink or yellow. I like it red. So does Rose. The color of passion/love and blood at the same time. Odd I know. So pretty upon looks but touching her thorns can make u bleed like the Nile. Bittersweet right? Seeing as though darkness allows her not to see and wither in her own scary thoughts, I grab her hand to show her the light so she can grow far beyond any flower around her. While trying to touch the sky, she still goes to the bottom of the popcorn bag to eat kernels (can you say Weird?). Her thorns means she likes pain, so she scratches the poisonous whelps of bug bites cause she says it feels good to scratch her problems away. It's ironic that she doesn't think she has a "G" Spot seeing as though...well "G" ("initial"ly). But that's cause she hasn't met "me". I see melodic notes on the nape of her neck. Sexy. I hear she sings like a bird. Hopefully its one of the birds that come out early in the morning cause I like to start the day off right. At the prime of the day, her shape is absolutely fantastic (I wanted to say hourglass but that's too cliche), ya know wit the sun shining and all..photosynthesis. Rose..sun-shining.. *light* (I missed y'all wit that one). It's so damn pretty to me. A fantasy is for all thoughts to decease, for one to lose all ambitions and let it ride but a fear is to find out that no one gave a damn whether she did or didn't. Makes perfect sense..to me. She can tell the difference between artificial light and the real deal which is the reason I still stay in contact. It's sad to know that the artificial will put on a good front for the real deal and she might not be able to grown as tall and strong as possible, but that's a part of life right? Eventually she will come to see that all she has to do is step outside and look up. Soak up the light Rose.

*I tried lol.

Man oh Mann..

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While cruising out on a ride downtown jammin on some Nas- Still Dreaming, we speak upon the twisted concepts of relationships nowadays, while agreeing on how people need to step they game up and stop trying to impress others while embarking on the journey of self. We realize that we can't keep others in our lives if we haven't even found ourselves yet. But I also realize that it sometimes takes others in our lives to help find oneself (I hope dude realizes what he's got before it leaves). Just at that point, "Man" plays a track featuring Phonte of Little Brother (I forgot the track name), but then this track pops in my head..





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And as I look at the Skyline I think to myself,

"When will women ever see the light?" "When will they realize there are genuine people who aren't concerned about the "gettin money" concept and are willing to treat women like the queens they are really do exist?" "Will women ever realize that men who actually want to sincerely love without cheating or being cheated on dwell on this planet? The world may never know. Meanwhile, it's time to end the "Imma Dog" era. I mean really fellas? REALLY?? Imma "dog"!? Yea aiight...that's why y'all my "bitches" with platinum and diamond flea collars. Go sit or play dead.

It often scrambles my mind.. I mean I know it has to start with someone but damn! My CREW-SET, cuzzo (Victor Rice), and I can't do it by ourselves! You irrational, confused, and brainless niggaz just make it hard for people like us to be seen or heard. Go sit in the penalty box. In the mean time, what do I do? I tell these women that I'm not concerned with what's in between your legs but what's going on in your mind. Mental sex is what I like to call it. Getting orgasmic pleasure out of one's intellectual thoughts...

So with that said, WHO WANNA FUCK??? Pause..


P.S.- "I went HARD on this one!" LMFAO!!!
Godspeed yall..

Where are you?

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It's not like I didn't like Clipse to begin with, but this VLOG from Malice made me respect him to another level. Females: Don't go around f*ckin for money and Gucci bags.

Interesting!!

(from http://fnfarmy.lupefiasco.com)

THE L.A.S.E.R.S. MANIFESTO

To Every Man, Woman & Child...

1. We Want An End To The Glamorization Of Negativity In The Media.

2. We Want An End To Status Symbols Dictating Our Worth As Individuals.

3. We Want A Meaningful And Universal Education System.

4. We Want Substance In The Place Of Popularity.

5. We Will Not Compromise Who We Are To Be Accepted By The Crowd.

6. We Want The Invisible Walls That Separate By Wealth, Race & Class To Be Torn Down.

7. We Want To Think Our Own Thoughts.

8. We Will Be Responsible For Our Environment.

9. We Want Clarity & Truth From Our Elected Officials Or They Should Move Aside.

10. We Want Love Not Lies.

11. We Want An End To All Wars. Foreign & Domestic (Violence).

12. We Want An End To The Processed Culture Of Exploitation, Over-Consumption & Waste.

13. We Want Knowledge, Understanding & Peace.

14. WE WILL NOT LOSE BECAUSE WE ARE NOT LOSERS, WE ARE LASERS!!!

Lasers are the opposite of losers. Lasers are shining beams of light that burn through the darkness of ignorance. Lasers shed light on injustice and inequality. Losers stand by and let things happen. Lasers act and shape their own destinies. Lasers find meaning and direction in the mysteries all around them. Lasers stand for love and compassion. Lasers stand for peace. Lasers stand for progression. Lasers are revolutionary.
Lasers Are The Future.

We're Not Losers...We Are L.A.S.E.R.S.!!!

Love Always Shines Every-time Remember 2 Smile!

And that's the reason..

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Ol' Jack Black Nacho Libre lookin ass nigga



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Why I don't honor niggaz like this in the game. Somewhere down the line it became all about the money, cars, clothes, and "hoes" (as they say). Hardly anybody does it for the love of hip-hop/pure music anymore. smh..


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I further express my point. This just goes to show that money DOES NOT make you sexy.

"Is it lame that I didn't enter the game to get a whip and a chain? I refuse to become another one of these niggas slaves that gave away they soul jus to get a chip or a day."- Charles Hamilton- Bud Dwyer

Matter fact, lemme run the track..

Yeah Man...

Placebos...

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I just got to listening to this song today. I mean I heard it before but I really gave it a listen and I appreciate what Hamilton is speaking on with this track.



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Now I usually don't get down to this kinda music anymore but seeing as though it's Pimp C (R.I.P.) and the fact that we played this song hard when we threw the infamous CREW party at the QUADS, I figured, "For The Good Times"!

AAAAA CREWWWW!!!! 02-09-06 AAHHHHHH! HOLD MY D*CK!! LMFAO!! We was some crazy niggaz dog.


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It wouldn't be right if I didn't throw this one in here as well!

The best birthday gift EVER!!

I told myself I wouldn't put this up but what the hell. Me and Vic went hard on this one lol.

Happy Birthday to Ms. Sherriane Allen from Birmingham, AL

** Shena u know I love you girl!! HAHA!


HERE'S SOMETHING FOR YOUR MINDZZZZZZZZZZ

Video Response + Q and A's

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This video was a response to Ms. Tenisha Sanford out of Birmingham, AL. We appreciate your response to the video and that's why Victor Rice A.K.A. Mr. Charisma and I made this..


And now for those questions people on Facebook have been asking me... (I appreciate them too. Maybe by answering them, some humans can get a better understanding about me.) So without further a due, here are the Q & A's..


*From Latoya Jones out of the South Suburbs of Chicago (I won't be specific lol)

Q: Would u go buy pads for your mom?

A: Of course! Matter fact, I'd go buy pads for any female that needed it. Some guys would get embarrassed to get em but I know they not for me so I wouldn't give a damn. I've bought pads for my mom and sister plenty of times.

Q: What would u think of a female who carries condoms with her?

A: I'd honor her to the fullest! As long as she doesn't have like 10 of em with her lol. A few is fine by me. It just goes to show that she likes to be as safe as the guy who carries condoms too.

*This question comes from an anonymous female who wrote in my honesty box...

Q: Why do men think its okay for them to be the only unemotional sex partners? When females do it, they're considered, "heartless."

A: Sweetheart we are human, we all have our needs and desires. I respect a female who knows what she wants since most between the ages of 18 and 35 don't. If she just want sex, chances are he might too. But that doesn't make her a hoe or anything like that.

*These questions came from Ms. Stepfanie "Anita" Baker also from the South Suburbs of Chicago (She had quite a few so be ready. I'm sure she'll have many more to come)

Q: What makes you happy?

A: I like to see a female happy no matter what. I also care very much for the happiness and well being of ALL my friends whether I speak to them on a regular or not. I don't care to be rich but I do wanna be comfortable with my life. Nice house, 2 cars, wife and kids (esp. a son). I wanna be able to make a trip at least twice a year. Oh and my peace of mind and my music keeps me happy as well.

Q: What makes you sad?

A: Pretty much the opposite of what makes me happy. Seeing females in relationships that aren't right for them. Seeing the close females in my life sad (Mom, Grandma, Sisters). Me not being able to have my thoughts cloud my mind when I want them to cause I either be busy or someone's just talking in my ear too much.

Q: Any regrets?

A: None at all. If I were to change one thing I previously did then I wouldn't be the person I am today. So with that said, I love my life and everything in and out of it. No matter how much it may suck at times.

Q: Favorite alcoholic beverage? Least favorite? and why?

A: I love Cranberry Vodka. It has to be Absolut but heavy on the juice. I like to catch a nice buzz. I grew out of the "getting drunk" phase. My least favorite is pretty much anything cheap. Cheap liquor induces hangovers for me. I really don't care for dark liquor either. Esp. E&J...can you say GROSS?

Q: If u had all the money in the world what would you do with it?

A: U heard it from Biggie..More money more problems. I say that to say this, gimme enough money for about three or four generations of my family to live and hope they spend it right and I'll give all the money back to the rest of the world. I don't like too much attention so I'd rather have my privacy and my life as oppose to money.

Q: What age did u lose your virginity and how did it go?

A: Ummmm I was prolly about 16 (I know I had my drivers license). It was soo bad, the condom broke and I came fast. She didn't get pregnant though (Thank You God). But don't get it twisted, I blow backs out now lol.

Q: If you could be with a forbidden person who would it be?

A: Only 1 person will know what this means....




Pause..lol

Q: What do u look for in a woman?

A: I look for someone that can put up with me (I'm a very simple person). My weakness is sweetness. I want a woman who will exemplify what the mother of my child should be like. Nice figure and fine as hell in my eyes (Beauty is in the eye of the Beholder).

Q: What is your take on when male or female really work to keep a person? Is it pitiful? Should it be a joint thing or should one person do something more always.

A: No, its not pitiful. It's just what u do when you're in love. U do things u thought you'll never do and that's the bittersweetness of it. I think at times a person may have show/do more for the other at times. But its a push and pull thing ya know? You do your part and he will do his. That's what makes relationships/shits so beautifully ugly. Relation (Common Ground) Ship (Help one another cause you're in the same boat) Shit (Self explanatory). It should definitely be a joint operation but there will be problems on the ship and 1 partner may have more experience in a particular field then the other (get my drift?) << Another "ship" reference.

Q: When sex is involved, do you believe men or women have a harder time accepting just a sexual relationship? Which do you believe is weaker?

A: I believe..scratch that I know that sex definitely complicates relationships. No matter how much a person may say it won't, it ALWAYS DOES! But I do believe that women have a harder time accepting a strictly sexual relationship. Why? I wish I knew. Maybe a female can give me an answer to that so I'll know how to further honor a female's perspective more on that subject. Maybe its the fact that females don't really know what they want until they get involved...even then they still may not know what they want. I know females are super sensitive and that's why I love yall!

Q: In your opinion, who lies the most? female or male? And what is the differences in lies between the two? Does one lie worse or does one lie the most?

A: Men lie about small dumb shit. Maybe not even a lie, but so far as not telling the entire truth. And I believe females do the same. We are all human. Bingo! And that's one of the reasons why I'm single. I can actually handle telling the entire truth though. I'm looking for a female who can do the same (or at least to the best of her abilities).

Q: Why do people ask your opinion about stuff and not like it when you are completely honest?

A: I honestly don't have an answer for that one. Some people can't take constructive criticism I guess. I can take it all though. Me and my fellow CREW members spent plenty of late nights putting each other on blast. But it was all healthy conversation. That's what we all needed to hear to better ourselves. AAAA CREW!!!

Q: How did you get the scar on your chin?

A: I was at a club in Birmingham, AL called Banana Joes (WTF? lol). Me and my cousin saw these two guys about to throw down in the club, Cuzo jumped on the pool table and I went to turn my head (on some Matrix shit) cause I saw someone throw a bottle my way and it clipped my chin and (as Jamell would say) congratulations! It didn't hurt at all though, I got a few stitches and I was good(even Neo got hit by a bullet lol).

WHEW! I'm done..for now anyway.

**P.S. Damn Stepfanie! U prolly made this entry actually worth reading LOL! A lot of good questions though..but it's the answers that makes it worthwhile (I gotta take credit for something. U understand.)

Holla at yall later, I'm dead ass tired now.

New Vids..Talking about the attractiveness of money

Myself and my cousin Mr. Charisma A.K.A. Victor Rice having some innocent conversation..





and again...

Chillin....

My First Video Blog...Hooray!

Now that I got the hang of it (kinda) Imma have much more to post.

Me and my cousin coming soon...

Finna hit the road in a few... but jotting notes in between

In about in hour I'm gonna hit the road to Alabama for a week and a half to take care of some business. Last night I bought myself a journal to jot down thoughts, ideas, and I even started writing a few rhymes lol. I'm not expecting much out of it, just to see how it would look on paper if I tried. I'm kinda feeling it though. Another reason I got this journal is to start my work on my family tree. Time to trace my roots. I'm excited to see my family again though..as usual. Time to listen to Hamilton all the way there. I'll let u know what thoughts I came up with when I get there. Ok gotta go now. Moms talkin bout "u doin that bloggin shit again?" lol. She is truly a piece of work..Holla back yall.

The ?'s

1. Why is it that people ask your opinion on things then don't seem to care or absorb what you say after wards? Maybe next time u need to figure it out for yourself dammit lol.

2. Why do so many people walk around with attitudes all the time? No ones struggle is the same. Pause.

3. Why do they call an Orange an Orange? Shouldn't they call a grape a purple? Or a Banana a yellow?

4. How did an entire administration screw up the whole country??

5. I often wonder how many people will really care if I moved to Birmingham. Will they miss me? Will they even care if I die? And how many will attend my funeral?

6. Is there an afterlife?

7. Are there deeper meanings behind movies that are meant for entertainment? Are they tryna tell us something?

8. Is there a female that's actually fine as hell, faithful, cool, and smart? I only ask because I haven't come across it yet.

9. On that note, does anybody believe in monogamy anymore?

10. Does a driver's license really mean u can drive? NOT!

11. Why did Cassie shave her head?

12. And why do rappers still beef?

13. Is Alicia Keys and Lauren London as smart and cool as they are fine?

That's all I can think of for now. More questions some other time.. peace.

Kinda reminds me of myself in a sense...the missing Link

In my mind at most I'm just an ordinary person wandering throughout the world till I realize that I was meant for much more. I evolve to be this higher being in the face of evil and doubt.



When all else fails, people rely on me in some form or another. I bring purity and stability to the tainted mind. My primary weapons are my thoughts and my state of mind. I use it to my full advantage to help them overcome their problems about life as I try to make sense of this troubled world in my own way.



The enemies I fight through my journey are all u naysayers, non-believers, bullshitters, and even the doubts and insecurities of my own mind. Nevertheless I shall overcome..it's destiny.



Idk if y'all remember, but in the Nintendo 64 installment of Zelda: Ocarina of Time, Link used the Ocarina to warp to different places in Hyrule. My Ocarina is Hip-Hop. Every time I play my music it takes me to a place far away from the world, where I originally came from...a place of peace.



All pieces of the Triforce are within me: Wisdom, Courage, and Power. Can't have one without the other.



Link often uses a fairy to heal all his wounds, to bring him back from certain death, or to gives him hints throughout the game. But my fairy is my conscience. Or good voice...Whatever u wanna call it. She reminds me to keep a level head throughout the Game of Life.



The Hero of Time was always reincarnated through somebody whenever Hyrule (The World) was in peril. With that said, I know for a fact that I've been here before.

Enough said..play the game. Don't play me. If you try, I will be forced to smite your ass.

Omarioff!!

I made this video in my younger years while strolling through Gary, IN. I saw a guy dancing at the corner of Ridge Rd. & Broadway in front of a Currency Exchange. I sat back and said to myself, "Damn he kinda look like...CAMERA TIME!!!"
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A must share story (By Jay-D)

So I woke up at around 6am and logged onto facebook and on there I see 1 lonely inbox message. I proceeded to click on it and saw that it was from my good man Jay-D who sent this message a few hours before (2:46 am to be exact). It was titled "A must share story", Thus giving the title for this entry (it's only right). And it goes:
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So I'm riding home from Famo's crib at approximately 1:05am this morning, going west on Bradley. There is no one on the streets when I come to the corner of Bradley and Neal; waiting to make a right a the red light.

Directly across the intersection from me in the oncoming traffic lane, I notice a group of white people in two cars parked at the green light, exchanging obscenities; three white boys in a Red 1990s GMC pick-up and two white chicks and two white guys in a green Sunfire.

As I become more engaged in the interaction, I proceed to roll my window completely down, as well as turn my music down to hear better.

As soon as I look back at the altercations, a white boy is getting out of the pick-up and rapidly approaching the sunfire; a gentle from the sunfire gets out, and so does a chick.

The two gentlemen getter closer to each other when the gentleman from the pick-up steals the shit out of homey from the sunfire- he looked like Darlenes Boyfriend from Roseanne, only with blonde hair. The chick tries to break it up but the lad from the pick-up proceeds to really get in blonde hair guys ass.

A guy hops out the sunfire, along with another chick to try to save their pal, so do the rest of the homeys from the pick-up; but before anyone could get to the two goons, the first homey from the pick-up slams homey to the ground and kicks his ass all the way to the curb.

This is going on for about 5 mins, as another vehicle pulls behind this brawl thats taking place and I'm laughing my ass off at what is now a green light for me.

Somehow the fight ends and all parties try to get back to their respective vehicles (As I give a loud Nelson "Ha Ha" and point at them), and one of the chicks from the sunfire decides to talk a little more shit saying, "Get a Real Pick-Up Truck Bitch!" and proceeds to slam the driver of the Pick-up's foot in his door.

He replied cleaverly with "This is a real pick-up truck!" Drops the clutch and peals the phuck out out at the light, and hits the hardest right turn I've ever seen in Champaign county, going south on Neal. I again begin to laugh very loudly and point as the defeated passengers of the sunfire drive past me.

I finally got a chance to make my long awaited right turn on Neal steet and went home in laughter just as my phone died as I was attempting to share my tale with Famo.

I felt as though I needed to reward myself for what I just experienced, so I made this:
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My Niggaz/ Brothers I never had

It's been a min gang.

My birthday was pretty nice even though I kicked it late and all the guys weren't there. We went to King Coopa crib, drank Bacardi and Coke, had some heart felt convo, and elaborated on it. Me, B-Mo, and Coop were the last men standing that night. We had engaged in talking about what's been going on since the last time I seen em. Coop growing up fast..engaged & shit. He was the last person I thought would do it but he put all of the bullshit and hoes on pause.

(*Coop:I'm proud of you man. I never thought I'd see the day you'll be ready for that. AND u were the first nigga to call me on my birthday; 12:44am to be exact. I really wasn't expecting that. And that's the reason I appreciate it more*)

B-Mo found him a girl he really likes but still isn't ready for a relationship.

(*B-Mo: my superfly flashy brother..take your time, but don't take too long..time waits for no man. Or woman for that matter*)

Lo is my nigga till the death. He always makes me smile and guarantees me a good time. Hell he even got him a girl! I just hope he sticks this one out.

(*Lo: u know we had our bad share of snakes in Carbondale. I'm so happy we got through that cause it was definitely rough but we held each other down.*)

I wish Jamell was there but due to the time of night he just said fuck it LOL

(*Jamell..my nigga since I first moved to South Holland..I'm also happy to see that you've gotten over the girl who did u wrong too. But out of that bullshit you've acquired a lil man, your light-skinned twin. Hell u even found a girl u really like which is always a good great ect. ect. thing. I wish u came out to kick more to indulge in great comedy but hey, me telling you about it is just as good. DIAAB (inside joke)!!*)

Its always great seeing Goon G even though we don't talk as much anymore..I still love him.

(*Goon.. everything u said u was gonna do, u did it. Plain and Simple*)

Jay-D: ur the funniest/most intelligent man I know. No matter how long it's been, I can always see Jay-D and he'll treat me like I seen him the day before. I love him for that. Oh and thx for the beat on my birthday, it was the only gift I got and I loved it that much more (matter fact I'm listening to it now).

Felix..where do I begin. My Crewman that stutters but will scrape a nigga in a min. It's always a pleasure to see you my nig.

Yahree AKA Yahroe..it still kinda bothers me how u and Lester just jumped up and left but ppl gotta make moves right? I jus wish I had more time to kick it with yall. Just make sure u never forget about us while u down there. And cheer up nigga! U always sound so sad on the phone! LOL!

Lester..goddamn Triple L..U r thee most reliable guy I know. Even though u moved to the A, I know that if anything ever happened to any one of us you'll find a private jet to Chicago, land on top of the damn hospital, make sure we cool, and fly back in time to get to work. U r truly irreplaceable my friend.

Walt..u r the one who always invites me to a Bulls game even though I don't have a ride there, but u always call to make sure. I like that in ya. You've also blessed me with an official God Son. Ur a cool person to talk to about female issues (you know who I mean).

Reggie..we never really talk like that but u treat me no different than anybody else I named above. It's not really official but fuck it u Crew to me!

Update 6-2-09: My Nigga Carl Seals..My bad I forgot to put u down a while ago but u already know u will never be forgotten. We spent plenty of times high as all hell talking about real shit going on in the world (Why does it seem like some ppl that smoke have a more firm grip on life than ppl who stay sober?) I'll never forget the most recent time we had. Locking car keys up and all lol. It was raining hard as hell and we tryna be on some GTA shit. Hella funny. I'll never forget your screams of joy when we popped that trunk and yo ass climbed through the back seat. *that shit echoes my mind when I see your pics g* I love you to death boi.

Last but not least..Rob Tizzle: I knew we had clicked since the day u looked at my Myspace page and saw Little Brother's- Lovin' It as my profile song when we were at my studio in Carbondale. I respected your opinion about things ever since. We even got the same form of humor (Party Boy Theme Song)!

To those I grew up with on the old block: I love ALL YALL whether we talk or not as much anymore.

To those who I rarely talk to in CREW: AAAA CREW!!!! Yall will forever be in the corridors of my mind.

To the ONE who I don't fuck wit at all that WAS in CREW: Enough said..I picture my self driving in a car and in the backseat u was..Literally WAS! As in past tense. Fuck outta here!
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Hey did I mention I had a bad hangover the morning after my birthday? Shit was terrible! I threw up like 9 times! No more hard liquor till June.

That's all I can think of for now...oh yeah..to the facebook friends I talk to. I love yall too! I respect the opinions of all (unless u like Plies or Gucci Mane).