Look within yourself to obtain a peace of mind and stability. There's much more to life than money, cars, clothes, and women. None of the above define me. How bout you? Can you be your own man/woman if you try to get by like everybody else? You can't stand out if you try to fit in. With that being said, Welcome to the BlogSpot of Ramone "Magnifagrest" Frost
I vow to not be tainted by the inequities of Man. I will not be looked upon as a mere mannequin in motion; trendy and faceless. I do not belief in religion since it has caused more bloodshed than anything in known history, with that I'll believe what I feel is right. News..nah..I'd rather not go there. Let's just say, don't believe everything you see. Nobody can convince me that the way I inhabit my state of mind isn't what it should be..it is what it is, deal with it or there's always another option..*points to the door*. Music: I'll listen to what I feel can be relevant to my life..music having some sort of meaning for progression rather than to brainwash and deteriorate (that goes for T.V. too lol). I'll never live a life that is beyond me, that is until the time comes for my spirit to "shed" this body. Oxymoron; I love people but some of y'all some sneaky bastards! *In James Earl Jones* "DON'T EAT THE APPLE DAMMIT!!" Too many things happen to people naturally (natural disasters or by way of health problems) for them to kill each other. Hmm..Relationsh1ts?..hard to trust...Pause. lol. But I am gonna start going for exactly what I want from now on. If it's something I don't like and I can't deal with then I'm not gonna lead you on and "try" to make it work. "If that's how you are, then you're not for me." Just tired of B.S. I think I'll write a list of what I want on paper and pass it out to ppl I'm interested in, if you don't meet qualifications then throw it away..j/k. Bottom line, I want a prestigious woman. OK, this is totally irrelevant to anything else but: I like my name. I just thought about that. Hell yeah aiight cool.
^ ^ ^ You see what color lampshades they had up!? My aura; My CREW lol. (I jus noticed that)
^ ^ ^ Now at first I tried to find the regular song and failed. But as I listened to this chopped and screwed version, I figured that whoever comes to this blog and listens to/reads this entry might better understand what Lupe is SAYING rather than going for the beat or whatever the hell it is most of this generation goes for in music. Enjoy..
Now I ain't tryna be the greatest I used to hate hip-hop... yup, because the women degraded But Too $hort made me laugh, like a hypocrite I played it A hypocrite I stated, though I only recited half Omittin the word "bitch," cursin I wouldn't say it Me and dog couldn't relate, til a bitch I dated Forgive my favorite word for hers and hers alike But I learnt it from a song I heard and sorta liked Yeah, for the icin, glamorized drug dealin was appealin But the block club kept it from in front of our buildin Gangsta rap-based filmings became the buildin blocks For children with leakin ceilings catchin drippins with pots Coupled with compositions from Pac, Nas's "It Was Written" In the mix with my realities and feelings Living conditions, religion, ignorant wisdom and artistic vision I began to jot, tap the world and listen, it drop
My mom can't feed me, my boyfriend beats me I have sex for money, the hood don't love me The cops wanna kill me, this nonsense built me And I got noooo place to gooo They bomb my village, they call us killers Took me off they welfare, can't afford they health care My teacher won't teach me, my master beats me And it huuurts meee soooul
I had a ghetto boy bop, a Jay-Z boycott 'Cause he said that he never prayed to God, he prayed to Gotti I'm thinkin godly, God guard me from the ungodly But by my 30th watchin of "Streets is Watchin" I was back to givin props again and that was botherin By this uncomfortable as a untouchable touchin you The theme songs that niggas hustle to seem wrong but these songs was comin true And it was all becoming cool I found a condom on the ground that Johns would cum into and thought What constitutes a prostitute is the pursuit of profit then they drop it The homie in a suit pat her on the butt, then rock it It seems I was seein the same scene adopted Prevalent in different things with the witnesses indifferent to stop it They said don't knock it, mind ya business His business isn't mine and that nigga pimpin got it
They took my daughter, we ain't got no water I can't get hired, they cross on fire We all got suspended, I just got sentenced So I got noooo place to gooo They threw down my gang sign, I ain't got no hang time They talk about my sneakers, poisoned our leader My father ain't seen me, turn off my TV 'Cause it huuurts meee soooul
So through the Grim Reaper sickle sharpening Macintosh marketing Oil field augering Brazilian adolescent disarmament Israeli occupation Islamic martyrdom, precise Yeah, laser guided targeting Oil for food, water, and terrorist organization harborin Sand camouflage army men CCF sponsorin, world conquerin, telephone monitorin Louis Vuitton modelin, pornographic actress honorin String theory ponderin, bullimic vomitin Catholic priest fondlin, pre-emptive bombin and Osama and no bombin them They breakin in my car again, deforestation and overloggin and Hennessy and Hypnotic swallowin, hydroponic coughin and All the world's ills, sittin on chrome 24-inch wheels, like that
They say I'm infected, this is why I injected I had it aborted, we got deported My laptop got spyware, they say that I can't lie here But I got noooo place to gooo I can't stop eatin, my best friend's leavin My pastor touched me, I love this country I lost my earpiece, I hope y'all hear me 'Cause it huuurts meee soooul
In spite of the anger that enveloped me yesterday, I'll speak on it. First of all, females have no idea what they want! They deal with the worst kind of guys and come to me with their problems. Now for the record, I don't mind helping out, but don't keep coming to me about the same sh1t and expect me to have a different solution..period. My only aim is to show you that there is much better out there, and I'm not talking about me...hell that's how I got over my ex; I realized there was much better out there for me. My friend Alicia told me that most females don't know what they want til the age of like 35 (or something like that). IDK how true that is but if it's anywhere near that age they better get a clue real soon. I think that females might need a sense of security, that's why they stick it out with that particular person..or maybe they're afraid to be alone. Maybe they should try listening to Love and Appreciate by Murs if they need help. I just hate to see beautiful women go through so much b.s. with a bad choice instead of upgrading themselves by themselves. That's all I can think of for now..I'm done son.
So it's 6:10am: washing clothes and getting ready to hit the gym jamming to MYtunes. Funeral Saturday in Columbus, Ga. It kinda bothers me knowing that the 2 times I've been to GA it's been for a funeral. I still think about the last one..it was for Kim Freeney (Deidra's Mother); The weather was very odd. It snowed on the day of the funeral (I think it was in March). I'm not used to seeing snow in the previous times of being in the South. But on the way back to B'ham from GA, the snow stopped , clouds parted, and the sun melted all the snow within 45 mins. I believe it snowed because there was so much sorrow in the church at that moment. I then knew Kim went to a place beyond here when the clouds parted. With that said, there is indeed life after death. I also believe that the people who recognize the signs of a higher being are just as important as those who created the signs in order for them to be preached to others in/out of church. Odd? Nah..
I wonder what this one is gonna be like..
Everybody is wearing all white. I choose to further compliment my cousin with a White and Purple Rose before she embarks on her journey to "The Next Level". The Purple Rose primarily because that was her favorite color.
Pause.
^ ^ ^ ^ (White Roses mean Purity, Innocence, Silence, Secrecy, Reverence, Humility, Youthfulness, "I am worthy of you", Heavenly)
^ ^ ^ ^ (The purple rose indicates love at first sight, the first emotions of love and enchantment. The need to proceed slowly and cautiously. It represents the importance of the spiritual over the material. The purple rose also represents wealth, riches, and majesty. Purple roses say "I will always love you".)
Thoughts on hold for the moment..gotta get the day started...
As I chillax in the office tonight I think about the women I've come across since being down here. Some are very sweet and some are quite sour (lol). I realized that I like a woman that can speak for herself for most cases but can be a sweetheart at the same time. Not one that swears so much..only when necessary. It's not ladylike to swear every 15 secs..period. I don't want someone who goes to clubs so much either. Rather, someone who can actually enjoy being at home or out of the spotlight for someone they genuinely like. That kinda puts on the role of "someone needing to be noticed all the time" if you're going on a weekly basis. It also shows a sign of immaturity..but that's just my opinion (like it matters). Weed smokers are ok as long as she doesn't feel like she needs it all the time (Mind Control). Not on some, "I need a blunt! or.."Where da weed at?" type sh1t. << Major turn off. I've also realized that personality and individuality can go a long way. So far that even if you're just a cool person (in my book), I don't mind being around you. True enough I'm a man, but I've learned to withhold my sexual desires for something more in a woman. I've even gotten to the point where I can lay in a bed with a female all night not not have to have sex or tempt myself to do so. Pause. Maturity is the word. I guess being down here is benefiting me so far. It's bringing me to understand more about myself. I haven't talked to a few ppl from home in about a week or so, with that said, in case y'all forgot, I love all y'all. Imma start getting back in the weight room too..gotta get this body right. I met a nice girl in Lowe's today..real down to earth. I ACTUALLY approached her too. Talk about nervous! I usually break out in sweats as soon as I think about approaching a female. I'm shy, contrary to belief. I guess it's because I think about a scenario of her playing me in my mind and it always turned me away. (Overthinking- When you create situations for the good and for the bad).
" But I do know that eyes give out the truth. Lie is a mouth pollution, so I gotta figure out a solution without abusing everything I am about so..how can I do this?"- Charles Hamilton- In Case I Actually Get Her
It turned out pretty good though. I couldn't ask for more except a chance at peaceful dialogue and she subliminally accepted. She offered good conversation and asked me to write my number down. Good or Bad? I didn't know what to think. I didn't wanna appear thirsty and ask for hers so fast (Overthinking again). I played it real cool though. I think I left a good impression (and again lol). If so, I'll speak to her soon. We'll see how that goes though. I still got big plans for the next few years. What u may ask? I'd rather not speak on that just in case it doesn't go as planned..don't wanna jinx myself. 4th of July was cool. Spent time with family. The more I spend time with them, it makes me realize the importance of all forms of family. Many may not think of it like I do, but everybody needs some sort of family even if they're not willing to help you in times of need or at all for that matter. Just know that they'll be the first at the funeral. That goes for the friends I've received as family over the years as well. That's all I can think of for now..bye.
Genuine, Truthful, Honest, Easy to get along with. A rare breed. I'm more cool than a pool in a blizzard with ice cubes in it during Christmas. The other side of the pillow is good to me. Why?...cause it's cool. My greatest enemy is my inner me. Mind-Set: At this point, I live life knowing that everything has a beginning and an end. So I try to enjoy everything that comes my way cause one day it will cease to exist. I'm a very mature individual. I think about a lot of things that don't register to the minds of my peers. I almost feel like the oldest 25 yr. old I know. What's reality without the "R"? So to sum it all up, I'm imperfectly perfected to make sense of all the bullshit that's going on nowadays..
